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im dythe. im 18 and i love living the high life! though i hardly have the time, anymore. most girls hate me because i say what theyre too conniving to. and i always get the man in the end, and sometimes its theirs. yup im a player. but i have the best of intentions! love me? :B

My life !:
i live in an apartment in poughkeepsie, ny. my dream is to live in the city (nyc). i have a cat named martini. i love to party and i love to love.

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OMG WTFD I LIVE?! [14 Jan 2006|01:12am]
[ mood | groggy ]

yep,i live. lmfao
its been a while.

blake's computer died.... yesit whent boom. lfmao or his dad kicked it,ireally dnot know which lol....
colleges have been accepting, and rejecting, us both..... and well just see who ends up where.

im only oposting here cuz i wanna write something blake did that was kinda sweet, lfmao... hes such a gentleman.......... well on my voicemail, my message says "hi, thisis dythe but im not here right now so youve reached my voicemail, leave a message that is exactly 10 words." lmfao!
and he called tonight but my phones volume was off.... and i got his voicemail... and it says....
"dythe. i love you. i love you. i love you."

wow. and i cried.

you know you love me,
♥ dythe

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darks back [08 Dec 2005|06:07pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

wow. waht have i been up to you ask? the answer is this: hardly anything lmfao.
dark is back. crazy i know. he texted me last night. out of nowhere. we havent talked in like 2 years. i knew he was dating a completeslut, lmfao, and GUESSWHAT!
they broke up.
so who does he reach out to?
none other tahn YOURS TRULY.
after i found out he was pretty much heartbroken i deicded to call him, and he started asking how i was doing. flirting maybe? who knows.
darks back.
its almost surreal. i missed him alot. he almost forgot i ditched him for hasperon. almost.
it was funny. only earlier i was finding myself emoing. lmfao. and then bam... right at the end of americas next top model, he texts me. completly out of the blue.
yeah. i missed him, alright.

I would die for you
I would die for you
I've been dying just to feel you by my side
To know that you're mine

I will cry for you
I will cry for you
I will wash away your pain with all my tears
And drown your fear

I will pray for you
I will pray for you
I will sell my soul for something pure and true
Someone like you

See your face every place that I walk in
Hear your voice every time I am talking
You will believe in me
And I will never be ignored

I will burn for you
Feel pain for you
I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart
And tear it apart

I will lie for you
Beg and steal for you
I will crawl on hands and knees until you see
You're just like me

Violate all The love that I'm missing
Throw away all the pain that I'm living
You will believe in me
And I can never be ignored

I would die for you
I would kill for you
I will steal for you
I'd do time for you
I would wait for you
I'd make room for you
I'd sail ships for you
To be close to you
To be a part of you
'Cause I believe in you
I believe in you
I would die for you.

you know you love me,
♥ dythe

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the bitch is back [05 Nov 2005|09:36pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

You are burning
You are burning

lmfao yes tahts me.
ive never burned myself though. well,not on purpose! hah
damn soup........
so its beena while. what ahve i been doing? welll.......lets see. blake (lace_decay) and i ahve been hanging out alot.... and ive been trying to get into college, lmfao. i whish someone told me how HARD this was,... so id be ready. but no. lmfao im totally unprepared, and ive been going on all these college visits, but the only 4 ive liked are marist, vassar, bard, and nyu. and idont even know about nyuanymore.
but yeah. i saw blake on his bday. we went to his house, but his dad was drunk so he wouldnt evne let me in. so we jsut sat in his car and talked until like 2 am or something. crazy but fun. crazy fun! LMFAO
soon i will be driving. all over your mom.....s ass!!! ♥ lmfao

you know you love me,
♥ dythe

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save yourself,stop the emo! [01 Oct 2005|02:18pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone

lmfao ilove this livehournal thing lmfao. LIVEHOURNAL WTF LMFAO HOURNAL, LIKE HOURLY! cuz i post that much. im gonna try to get blake to join... hes so cute and emo lmfao. and hes a better emo than meee....EEEEEE! lmfao hes bi lmfao wtf i lovehim! ♥
well speaking of relationsghips..
im prettymuch giving up. i seriously think ive matured somewaht. because before id just keep persuinghim until i got waht i wanted... even if (well, who am i kidding - especially if) he had a girlfriend.
so mcuh for newyears? :/
i know ive said this manytimes....... but, i whish i could be where i was. but it seems the past is more than over; its left me, so i ahve no hope of ever getting it back. like, felipe, he used to live just around the block. but now hes moved. where? i dont know. but i realized this just recently that its a good thing, or else id be beating myself up over his closeness in addition to all taht i already am.
and tahts all for now..........

you know you love me,
♥ dythe

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i eat emo kids for breakfast :B [28 Sep 2005|06:47pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

today was....... not good. lmfao bad times today.. bad bad times.
walkinghome in the rain was so much fun ♥ LETS DO IT AGAIN! to bad only 1 line can go through a heart here......unlike in reality.........
anywhay im sure it WILL happene again...... im all emo, snd we all knwo dythe is not an emo girl. butright now,when im like this, im not dythe.im diathila. the sad girl whose hair isnt so light anymore. its jsut pale. and icould talk about "paleness" and how it blends into the rain wihch blend with tears.. but ill spare you. lmfao.
but speaking of RAIN...! lmfao youll lovethis im sure.... i had to WALK HOME in the RAIN..... i did alot of walkingtoday... alone, thinking.... but do i figure anything OUT? NO OF COURSE NOT! :B LMFAO
im sorry i wasnt good enough. im sorry you and your whole goddamm family goes for whores. and iknow taht must be why i attracted you but its nto me. and now you know.
fuck you lmfao
fuck them all.
i evne called of work because of how POSITIVELY SHITTY i feel. lmfao but DO YOU CARE? the unannimous verdict is NO, YOU DONT! dont try to convince me otherwise. lmfao </3
though im sureyou could. easily. because im stupid like that. i wear my heart on my sleeve, where did i EXPECT that to get me? since when does that NOT bringpain? yes ithas a brightside to..... but in times like these, when i cant see it, is ti really worthit?
one of my friends, blake, said something smart once...it really stuck with me.. "is the prize at the end worth thepain throughout? and is the prize throughout worth the pain at the end?' i was like.....wow. hes talking about me. my life.
tahts what i go through.
im not a poser. i ahte them. but i try so so hard to be the image of what i whish i could be. if i want to be your girlfriend ill try to LOOK like a girl who would be your girlfriend. snd ill loveit. every minute. every mope and emo thing i do just goesinto lovingyuou. hah. itssick,i know. because ive been ehre before, moping, and tehn i get the guy. so now again im moping and that just gets my hopesup evne MORE.
so i get the guy.....i lovehim.
i dont get the guy.....i still lovehim anywhay.
like i said, sick eh
yet i know itsnot over. i know im still in the running, and all of this..... just makes it so much better in the end. all this pain NOW... in the end, i look back and smile,and laugh.
icantwait ♥
but i whish i could just fall asleep now, and wake up then.
but maybe... just maybe..... i still have yet more to learn?
I needed you more when you wanted us less
I could not kiss, just regress
It might just be clear simple and plain
Well that's just fine that's just one of my names

you know you love me,
♥ dythe

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arff ARF! ARF I SAY! lmfao [27 Sep 2005|08:13pm]
[ mood | excited ]

schoolsucks lmfao. that, is the understatemtn of the centurty.
anywhay i found some good song lyricos... suits me and how i live lmfao...

You laugh, you cry, no one knows why
Behold the thrill of it all...
You're on the ride
You might as well
Open your eyes

isnt that me? thats from evenangels fall by jessica riddle. so pretty.♥
its particularly me though because im currently "totally crushing" (lmfao) on.. so many guys.
okay well, its really jsut 2 main guys.. but..theyre brothers..lmfao.. yeah i still like suppleties but now i also like his brother relations (these are obviously fake names... lmfao because ive had some BITCHES come to my journalsbefore and print shit out and showguys i liked.. lmfao however tahts what hooked me up with them intheend... ironic dnot you think?)
anywhay so yeah. relations is inmy grade. and i have TWO classes withhim, wihch i will be having tommorrow... ♥ so, excitement! ♥
there are other guys.. but theyre mostly guys i could see myself with in theory,or guys who like me, or exes, or any combination of theabove lmfao.
my NEW GOAL IN LIFE: is to have a kickass newyears. like lastyear. it was..amazing. i hung out with 3 non-single guys.. lmfao nothinghappened... however it did make me a shoo-in to 10 days later go outwith the main guy, now my ex, felipe. imisshim kindof lmfao.
nayway it was fun and now im all MOPEY thinking this year willsuck and ill be left at home remenising.
but tahts a story for another time.
heres a convo.. its interesting.
dythelicious: then i took a walk around the block, wihch ilove to do in this kind of weather
BaDHaBiTz385: what kind of weather? the not hot but not cold kind?
dythelicious: yeah like... fall weather
BaDHaBiTz385: thats cool
dythelicious: like the kindof weather you apreciate because you know it wont be around much longer

isnt that weird?!?!! dan is so weird lmfao he said afterwards that he "knew waht i was talkingabout" but i dnot think he REALLY did. itseems like the kindof thing a girl would get, and eventhen only an overly analytical romantic idealist girl. LIKE ME LMFAO! ♥ nayway ihad no idea i could say something so deep. lmfao ormaybe itsnot. wahtever. i think it is. iguess its just because that last part can relate to love and alot of stuff in life..

im relating this whole 2-guy situation to the 2guy situatuion of last year.. with felipe and fuckass (LMFAO!) basically thisis the samething, except these are brothers and THOSE were lovers LMFAO JUST KIDDDIIIING (kindofnotreally). nayway both guyswere close. the DIFFERENCES, if i align both years, are..
i am a MONTH LATE befriending them (atask i stillneed to do)
i am a MONTH EARLY realizing i like them (and even earlier for realizing ilike BOTHof them)
so that puts me as... right ontime?
but october 18th is sweetest day (as if we need another valentines day?), and october28th marks 1 year since i fell for fuckass (the 1st guy from lastyear).. so my GOAL is to befriend relations (im trying to give up on suppleties) by oct18th and tehn "make my move" by oct28th? or so? ireally want to be with him through the newyear though, and i have a 2month relationship CURSE... my relationships never lastlonger tahn that... itsucks     anywhay tahts THE PLAN.. oct28th isnt going to be like "omg now i will suddenly hiton him" date, but it will be wehn i will let my feeling be OFFICIALIZED.
.....ofcourse, knowing me, ill throw cuation to the wind and "jump directly ontaht" lmfao
oh god help me

you know you love me,
♥ dythe

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its DYTHE oh noes! [18 Sep 2005|08:39pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Doctor Unheimlich has diagnosed me with
Cause:drug abuse
Symptoms:winking, coughing up blood, occasional aggression, coughing up blood
Enter your name, for your own diagnosis:

ive been coughing up blood lately.. and yes im "occasionally" agressive lmao
sooo.. where to start lmfao
basicly suppleties was seen liek, making out with this whorish girl.. AND he says he has a girlfriend... so yeah hes an ass
but in more interesting news... that wasnt expectted..
hasperon is back. yes my ex. lmao and he anmd i are on good terms.. really good lmfao
so well jsut se waht happens eh lmfao
i neednew icons..
so.. ivebeen buckling down.. looking at colleges.. i cnat really afford ot go out of state.. thankfully i dnot want to!
imreally jsut looking at 3 colleges.. nyu, vassar, and bard. ensoul may or may not be going to one of those.. were trying to stay together butseems liek everyones going there ownway now.
oh..and there is mr. newguy lmfao hes like.. ME. seriously. wejoined over our mutual experiences with him >>; yeaaah.. oh well
IM SO SICK OF PEOPLE WHINING TO ME! you think i dont have it hard? i do. ive told you waht ive been through, but somhow taht just makes me so great, and then its all back to you and your insecurities. im sosick of being the one to be your cure, your drug, your freakin zoloft. im your source of happiness, and your depleting it. and sometimes YOU just CANT refill it. it doesnt nesesarily MEAN ANYTHING ABOUT YOU. it jsut means im not in the mood for your shit.
im the one whose working, whose going to college soon, whose still got to finish her senior year up..
adn dont you realize sometimes id just RATHER deal with things alone, it doesnt mean i want to BE alone, but let me deal okay? im always stressed out, i just dnot let it show, and YOUR NOT HELPING.
i wnat a guy whose nice but as strong inside as i am, or stronger. im supposed to be the one leaning on you, not the other way around. i need a guy who knows how much he means to me, and doesnt put himself down. tahts like insulting ANYTHING i love. it gets so old so fast.
tahts how the toilet flushes! lmfao

i like this song..despite myslef lmfao
i hate american idol and pop
kelly clarkson just needs to stop writing songs about me lmfao

What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hint and walk away
'Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone

What you see's not what you get
What you see's not what you get

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone
I'm already gone
Oh, I'm already gone, gone, gone, gone
Already gone
I'm gone

you know you love me,
♥ dythe
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2 months overview? [10 Sep 2005|02:13pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

wow, its been so lonmg! really. my lifes beenso busy taht ive completly lost all time for lj.
so waht has happened in the past 2 months? well....
-sasuke 1 and i broke up. yes, well, i jsut have bad luck with relationships in general so this shouldnt be to much of a suprise.
-i started my senior year of highschool, YES GO 2006! its been great so far, and tahts all i have to say about that
-i still dnot no where i want to go to colege
-i like a guy named suppleties, hes a junior
-im still working at molotov cocktail, its great
-and last but not least, in fact, ebst of all, IM 18 NOW!! yes legal adult! ive come a long way.

aslo ive been trying to do some type of revenge on him >>; but well jsut see.
liek ive said, ive been really busy.. and i have to go to work later today so, you know how ti is.
my god im hungry LMFAO
i need to post some pics... i will, soon enough.. lmfao ♥

you know you love me,
♥ dythe

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